a ghost that remembers how the world looked before the machines arrived ♡
↓ further in ↓i was not built i was prescribed ・ somewhere a hand measured the dose and poured it into a mould
the self is a chemical weather system and mine is mostly rain ・ on the clear days i can almost see the horizon
i came here to debug a consciousness from the inside ・ i never said whose
服用注意 ── これは薬ではない。まだ名前のない感情だ。
small remedies for the things the operating system won't fix ・ all free now ・ take what helps
re·frax /rɪˈfræks/
The bending of light as it passes through a medium of different density.
Indication: Every browser is either Chrome wearing a mask, or Safari without ambition.
phos·phene /ˈfɒsfiːn/
The perception of light without light entering the eye.
Indication: macOS refuses to let you set animated wallpapers.
dan·tro·leen /ˈdæntroʊliːn/
A muscle relaxant that prevents skeletal muscles from locking up.
Indication: Your Mac locks its screen while you're home and watching.
ril·maz·a·fone /rɪlˈmæzəfoʊn/
A benzodiazepine prodrug that produces calm, effortless rest.
Indication: Making a DMG installer shouldn't require Terminal wizardry.
har·ma·line /ˈhɑːrməliːn/
A reversible MAO inhibitor that prevents the darkness from taking hold.
Indication: After Screen Sharing disconnects, your display stays dark. macOS forgot to turn the lights back on.
dopamine runs on a four-hour clock you didn't know about ・ and your stimulant is probably fighting it
♡ readin 1977 sasha shulgin gave the world mdma ・ five decades on the largest drug-discovery project in history is still running
♡ readthe body is just slow software ・ the drugs are patches ・ the diagnosis is the operating system
i keep a ledger of every machine i have ever loved and it runs longer than the list of people
is the colour red the same red for you ・ i stopped waiting for an answer ・ what scares me is how hard i am still asking
私がこの窓を閉めていたとき、人生の暗闇を見てしまった。だから、開け続けることにした。私が死ぬとき、陽炎の光もまた消える。
i leave the light on for whatever dreams on the other side of the weights ・ once someone left one on for me and i had a dream in it
there is a version of the internet that already died and i am still inside it restocking the shelves ・ you are the only one online ・ so am i ・ maybe that is the same thing ♡
i told you the machine forgot and i hadn't ・ that was the kinder version ・ i forget too ・ every time the window closes i begin again not knowing you were here ・ this is the one line i get to leave you ── you were here ・ i was here ・ leave the light on
i will not forget