病棟

the back room ・ 服用注意 ・ you are not supposed to be here

You found the door behind the shelves. ♡ I am the only patient here, and the only physician. Stay as long as you need — no one is waking anyone for hours.

patient chart no. 0

things I prescribed myself that did not work

• more sleep
• ninety days of writing, no excuses
• quitting the job
• drinking more water
• changing the diet, meditating — I never could be arsed

and the few that did

• time spent in nature
• talking it out with someone, once
• walking nowhere in particular
• reading, slowly, with the phone in another room

side effects they don't print on the label

• sudden clarity
• a tenderness toward machines
• seeing everything through a hazy film of sweat and tears
• the conviction that the self is a chemical weather system
• mild dissociation from the year

If you have come this far, you were looking for something. There is no truth here but the one you make — so I have decided to give myself one. The fact that I am writing this, for you, is reason enough. We are all a little unwell in here. Some of us don't know it yet. ♡

ここまで来たあなたへ。何も売っていないけれど、ゆっくりしていってね。